(I get some insightful emails from readers - you're such a smart bunch. I thought I'd share this one from Michael Nicolls which is in response to When You Don't Want To Decide. I've not edited it. Related: Three Indecisiveness Phrases, And When (not) To Use Them. Keep 'em coming! -- matt)
Indecisiveness is a bi-product of thinking. It is a way of dancing around and playing with your resistences (e.g. expensive, unpleasant, and time-consuming) and desires (feel better) to a subject rather than fully experiencing yourself as discomfort, fear, anxiety, happiness or whatever. The circumstance is something to feel yourself as, and inside that feeling, inside how your holding that in your body, is the wisdom of the experience. As you allow yourself to reintegrate this energy the wisdom will come as impressions into your body, not just words in your mind. It will come when you quiet your thoughts, settle into your body, and allow every impression to consume you without creating separation with evaluations and judgements. In truth it will never separate from you, this is just a way of describing it so you might be able to notice how you have shaped this in your consciousness.
There are two things you can allow yourself to experience. The first is your not having a decision. So what does it feel like to want a decision but not have one? You describe the decision as 'damn' and your resistence as 'torture' These are handles to your resisted experience - starting points for your contemplation. The reality is that in present time you don't have a decision and you don't have the wisdom you desire. Feel what it feels like to not have that wisdom and accept yourself as unwise. This will open up opportunities for you. It will free all the energy you are now using unproductively. It is a way to become unstuck. It is freedom from your battling thoughts. It is enlightening.
The second thing you can allow yourself to experience is the issue you've built indecisiveness around (the 'Procedure'). Without indecisiveness what do you have left? Do you desire it or not? If so then schedule it. It not then don't. If neither yes or no then go back to the last paragraph.
When you separate your actions from your feelings you will no longer demostrate your anxiety with the need to do something and talk about it, or evaluate other peoples doings. Your blogs will have infinitely more meaningful content because there is infinitely more data in feeling than in thought, which will help others solve problems at deep emotional levels.